The Bible Miniseries...

So I wanted to really watch "The Bible Miniseries" on The History Channel, but was a bit uncertain due to mixed reviews.  Some of my friends said it completely deviated from the Bible and the Gospel so badly that it was horrible to watch while others watched and loved it and thought it was pretty accurate for the most part.  I gave in and recorded the series and was pretty okay with the turn out.  There were somethings that really drove me to the brink of being so mad that I almost wrote a letter to The History Channel about these things.  The first was how Abraham and Moses were almost played like they were nuts, complete lunatics.  This was especially bad with Abraham.  These are prophets of God, not some guy seeing hallucinations from bad shrooms people!  They were confident in the Lord, trusted to guide their people to do the right things.  They loved God and never acted like raving lunatics!  Then there is the whole situation with Moses and Aaron.  Yes, Moses was the prophet, but he had trouble with speaking, scripture says slow of speech.  I read the King James Version of the Bible and here is what is says: Exodus 4: 10 "And Moses said unto the Lord, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither heretofore, nor since though hast spoken unto thy servant: but I am slow of speech, and of a slow of tongue."  The solution to this is found in Exodus 4: 14 "And the anger of the Lord was kindled against Moses, and he said, Is not Aaron the Levite thy brother? I know that he can speak well.  And also, behold, he cometh forth to meet thee: and when he seeth thee, he will be glad in his heart."  So Aaron becomes the mouth piece for the prophet Moses.  This is something that bothers me about one of my favorite movies, "The Ten Commandments".  Once again they portray this part incorrectly, and it is also portrayed wrong in the "Prince of Egypt", the cartoon movie of this passage.  This is not just a historical book, it is the history of a great people chosen by God, get it right already!  The next part that bothers me is that they did not get the Atonement and crucifixion of the Savior.  When Jesus Christ went into the Garden of Gethsemane, He not only prayed, but He suffered the sins of the world.  Ironically, Luke tells part of the Saviors ministry that the other three gospels do not (Matthew, Mark, and John).  What took place in the Garden is not to be overlooked.  It is an important aspect of the Gospel of Christ.  I know that other churches do not necessarily place as much emphasis on it like The Church of Jesus Christ does, but it is important.  Here is what happened and I am going to share the whole passage, it is important together.  Luke 22: 39-46 "And he came out, and went, as he was wont, to the mount of Olives; and his disciples also followed him. 40 And when he was at the place, he said unto them, Pray that ye enter not into temptation.

41 And he was withdrawn from them about a stone’s cast, and kneeled down, and prayed, 42 Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done. 43 And there appeared an angel unto him from heaven, strengthening him. 44 And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground. 45 And when he rose up from prayer, and was come to his disciples, he found them sleeping for sorrow, 46 And said unto them, Why sleep ye? rise and pray, lest ye enter into temptation."  Christ bleed from every poor like someone who is working out really hard for a couple of hours would sweat.  This is significant because He paid for our sins with his blood so that we can repent.  He fulfilled the Law of Moses, which required a sacrifice of an unspotted (meaning the lamb had no blemishes, much like the Savior was the only perfect man to walk the earth, he never sinned) to seek forgiveness (and I double checked this to make sure it was right through a Judaism website, they do not currently practice this since the temple was destroyed by Rome around 70 C. E. (Christian Era).  His blood washes us all clean, opening the door for us to seek out God and ask for forgiveness through Him for our sins.  See why this is important.  But this also explains something about his crucifixion.  See, after this He was tortured (scourged, which means whipped, smote with a reed after placing a crown of thorns on his head).  They got this part right.  Next He is taken to Golgotha and placed on the cross and nailed to it through his feet and hands.  After He dies (in scripture He gives up the ghost, this is also significant, but that is another post), they do not break His legs like they do the other two because He is already dead.  Instead, they pierce His side with a spear.  See at this point He had bleed so much that there was very little of it left (I know this is a bit morbid, but to understand Gethsemane you need to know this).  This is what John 19: 34 "But one of the soldiers with a spear pierced his side, and forthwith came there out blood and water."  These were not seen in the miniseries, but the Garden is so important to the gospel.  With today's technology they could have made this happen.  I realize that many people would have been disgusted by this much blood and gore, but you see this everyday in the movies, sometimes even more.  Think of "The Patriot" with Mel Gibson.  Men were shown losing their heads, "Blackhawk Down" they showed (for accuracy) surgery on a mans leg in great detail, to the point of a man reaching in and grabbing his artery to try to save him.  For accuracy sake, why not show the greatest sacrifice that was given to each of us, a wonderful gift.  I do not see why showing the Saviors sacrifice in true form would be less offensive than showing blood and gore in horror movies, historical movies or even what we see on T.V.  What comes after that is the response from the Savior dying.  Certain things happened and are explained in the Bible.  This is found in Matthew 27: 51 "And, behold, the veil of the temple was rent in twain from the top to the bottom; and the earth did quake, and the rocks rent; 52 And the graves were opened; and many bodies of the saints which slept arose, 53 And came out of the graves after his resurrection, and went into the holy city, and appeared unto many."  In the temple there were was a room referred to as the Holy Of Holies.  Only one man could enter this room, the high priest.  When the Savior died, the veil of the temple was rent (torn).  This was the curtain that divided the Holy Of Holies from the rest of the temple.  I have been taught that this was a heavy curtain that could not be torn by a man, it would have to be cut.  The miniseries showed this scene as the curtains falling.  I do not know how the curtain was torn, but this to me mocks the Bible and what really took place.  They do just about anything now days with computer technology, why not do something more realistic.  Also left out was that the graves opened up.  Bodies of saints who has slept arose and went into the city, it even says they appeared unto many.  Again, Harry Potter can make ghosts, so can Lord of the Rings, why not a miniseries that shows the significance of the Saviors death and resurrection?  One last thing really bothered me.  They included Mary Magdalene in pretty much every aspect of the Saviors ministry.  While she is present in many parts of the scriptures and she was a disciple, she was not present all the time that we know of.  I was taught to not assume things when it came to the scriptures.  She has a major role, yes, what it is we do not know and can only speculate, which is I feel is dangerous.  The Savior appeared to her first, we know this from the gospels, and in fact, when she and Mary (mentioned in Matthew 28) come upon the tomb, the stone is rolled away, not broken in two.  We know from Mark 16 that He appeared to her first and that the Mary  that was with her was His mother..  Beyond that we cannot assume what that meant or if she was constantly with the Savior.  To add to it, when they receive the Holy Spirit as promised by the Savior, the apostles begin to speak in tongues.  They added her to this part.  Once again this really bothers me.  We do not know her role as completely as we would like, so lets not assume she was there with the apostles.  In fact, she is no longer mentioned after the Savior appeared to her at the tomb.  Acts 2: 1 "And when the day of Pentecost was fully come, they were all with one accord in one place. 2 And suddenly there came a sound from heaven as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled all the house where they were sitting. 3 And there appeared unto them cloven tongues like as of fire, and it sat upon each of them. 4 And they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance. 5 And there were dwelling at Jerusalem Jews, devout men, out of every nation under heaven. 6 Now when this was noised abroad, the multitude came together, and were confounded, because that every man heard them speak in his own language. 7 And they were all amazed and marvelled, saying one to another, Behold, are not all these which speak Galilæans? 8 And how hear we every man in our own tongue, wherein we were born? 9 Parthians, and Medes, and Elamites, and the dwellers in Mesopotamia, and in Judæa, and Cappadocia, in Pontus, and Asia, 10 Phrygia, and Pamphylia, in Egypt, and in the parts of Libya about Cyrene, and strangers of Rome, Jews and proselytes, 11 Cretes and Arabians, we do hear them speak in our tongues the wonderful works of God."  Again, no where does it say she was with the apostles.  I feel that if something like this is going to be made, then it should be made according to what is written (in this case by men of God, who were ordained by the Savior to be Apostles, fishers of men).  Do not add things because in recent history people believe that Mary Magdalene was the "Holy Grail" and was married to Jesus Christ.  This is an assumption and while it would make sense that He would marry because there are so many years in between his being 12 and teaching in the temple to when he started his ministry, we should not assume more than what we are given.  Speculation is not always a good thing.  Another thing that bothered me, and this will be the last one, I promise.  Is the baptisms performed after they show John the Baptist.  In Matthew 3: 13 "Then cometh Jesus from Galilee to Jordan unto John, to be baptized of him. 14 But John forbad him, saying, I have need to be baptized of thee, and comest thou to me? 15 And Jesus answering said unto him, Suffer it to be so now: for thus it becometh us to fulfil all righteousness. Then he suffered him. 16 And Jesus, when he was baptized, went up straightway out of the water: and, lo, the heavens were opened unto him, and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove, and lighting upon him: 17 And lo a voice from heaven, saying, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased."  It states He went straightway up out of the water.  No where does it say that John the Baptist sprinkled or dumped water on His head.  To come up out of the water, He would have to have been placed under by John the Baptist and brought back up.  Then they left out the full presence of the God Head.  God expressed His pleasure that Jesus Christ was following what He was supposed to be doing, keeping His commandments.  In this, the Holy Spirit was present as well.  This was not even done!  And for those that want to argue that the God Head is one being, you are wrong, Steven, who replaced Judas, confirmed that they are three separate beings before he was martyred in the name of Christ.  Steven became an apostle after Judas committed suicide.  So he was present when they received the Holy Spirit.  This is what is recorded in Acts 7: 55 "But he, being full of the Holy Ghost, looked up steadfastly into heaven, and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing on the right hand of God, 56 And said, Behold, I see the heavens opened, and the Son of man standing on the right hand of God."  So explain to me how God and Jesus Christ are one being when in fact an apostle of the Lord, the Lord being the Son of God, saw Him, Jesus Christ, being full of the Holy Ghost (all three are present again), sitting on the right hand of God.  Three separate beings, people: one in purpose: that purpose: To Bring to Pass the Immortality and Eternal Life of Man.  Christ Himself taught that through Him we can have eternal life.  As a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, we have another book, the Book of Mormon.  We also have the Doctrine of Covenants and then the Pearl of Great Price.  These all teach the same thing.  The Saviors gospel.  If you would like to know more go to: http://mormon.org/me/6N3Y  Not only will you find my profile, but you will learn more of what we believe.  You can get in touch with missionaries on there and even have them come to your home to share more of our beliefs.  I know that The Church of Jesus Christ is His gospel, that it is true.  He loves us and wants us to return to Him and Heavenly Father.  I know this because I have received confirmation from the Holy Ghost that it is true.  I know we have a prophet today just like in ancient times.  This is true, I know it to the depths of my soul.

Politics...Religion...Government...

So the last couple of days on Facebook several of my friends have changed their profile pictures to the equality sign from the Human Rights Campaign in a effort to get people to change their view or show support for the LGBT movement of same-sex marriage.  I do not feel that my personal Facebook page should become a political forum for these types of issues so I do not post them.  I have even had one friend basically tell me and others who do not agree with her that not only are we wrong and bigots, but that we should qualify our friendship with her.  Diversity and tolerance no longer mean what they used to.  Diversity is defined in the Webster dictionary as: the condition of having or being composed of different elements: variety; especially: the inclusion of different types of people (as people of different races or cultures) in a group or organization. 
Tolerance is defined in the Webster dictionary as: sympathy or indulgence for beliefs or practices differing from or conflicting with one's own. (There are several listed under tolerance, but I chose the one that fits with the issue I am blogging about).  First of all, I do not qualify myself with my own family, or husband.  They either accept me as I am or that is their problem.  I am who I am and I am learning to love me for me, faults and all.  I strive to qualify (if you will) myself with my Heavenly Father and my Savior, Jesus Christ, their opinion of me is the one that counts the most.  With that said, I am NOT going to qualify myself with my friends.  We have commonalities in our beliefs and then we have our differences.  The last I checked this is what makes America part of the great nation that she is, our differences and the right to celebrate them.  While I do not agree with certain issues and would choose to vote the way that my conscience would have me, I do not expect them to walk my walk and I would expect them to respect my beliefs and choose to walk their own walk.
I have made it clear on here and my Facebook that I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.  One friend who is also a member actually stated that she feels that we just follow the prophet like sheep, basically going with the flow and not thinking or asking for ourselves on such issues.  In 1995 the church released the Family Proclamation to the World which outlines the divine providence that is marriage.  It has been ordained of God since Adam and Eve and that will never change.  I do not blindly follow the churches teachings.  I prayerfully consider everything that the prophet and apostles tell us and receive my own confirmation on what we are being taught.  I believe that they were truly inspired to issue the proclamation to define the institution of marriage.  For her to say that she has not received that and she believes that our church leadership is wrong is terrifying to me.  When we start picking and choosing the teachings that we will follow is a dangerous thing.  I followed that path when I was younger and it led me down a road that almost cost me my life.  While I agree with her that we must receive our own confirmation of revelation if we question it, I do not feel that just because we do not receive it when first asked that it is wrong, we must continue to seek out that to bring it to our own understanding.  She said that it was mired in confusion, this is not the Holy Ghost, this is something else.  The Holy Ghost gives us clear thought when we are on the right path of discovery.

I am posting here because I am not opening my Facebook up to a political debate, like I stated, that is not what I feel my Facebook is for.  My blog is my blog.  I respect my friends beliefs and would never tell them that they are a sinner, going to hell, that they are not true Christians in the name of faith because that is not what a true Christian would do.  I strive to follow the commandment given to us in the John Chapter 13: 34 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.

35 By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.

In this, I do my best to love everyone (yes it is hard, but I really do try).  I want to mark myself as a follower of the Savior and this is how we must do that.  I know that some might read this (I do not know how many people read my blog and that doesn't really bother me, I do not write it for others, but for myself) but in the name of true tolerance, we must find an equal ground and agree to disagree.  We are not a country that was founded on agreeing with everything that everyone believed, if that was the case we would have never sought to separate from England.  We believe everyone has freedom to choose and should not face intolerance because of our morals and beliefs.

There Maybe A Move In The Near Future...

Gerry and I swore that the next move would be our last.  Boy how we eat those words.  With his back being messed up again, he is looking for work again.  He is still employed and receiving a paycheck but it is not enough because of the circumstances surrounding his injury (I will not explain our financials beyond that).  So he is looking in Minnesota and already has people anxious to talk to him and set up interviews.  We shall see.   I am kind of hoping for a move to get us away from here and his brother and sister-in-law, which is a long story.  We want to be close enough for the girls, but far enough to have our own life and not be under the microscope with them. 

Teenager!

So I have decided that my biggest challenge in life is to make it through my son's puberty with one or both of us alive.  Having a child with Bipolar, ODD and now minimal ADHD going through puberty is going to be the death of me (or him, take your pick).  I do not remember being so secretive, defiant or down right rude and obnoxious as a teenager (my parents might say differently and I long to be able to talk to them, something I could really use right now).  I miss my parents advice in my life.  When I have needed it most right now, I cannot pick up the phone and talk to them.  Especially my mom.  I know that he is changing, and I am waiting for that voice change to take place, one of the last things since we noticed dark facial hair lately on his face.  I know he will kill me for this post, but it is hard to vent when no one really knows the struggles that we face and it is hard to talk to family, none of them have a child like mine and my sisters all have no children.  What is especially hard is that the world, media and friends all say that it is okay to go against the morals we teach in our home, and it is apparent and obvious with the way he acts at times and pushes us away.  We try to talk to him, get through to him and reach him, but he turns more to his friends than he does his parents.  It does not help that my ex-husband has hurt him almost beyond repair, causing a lot of trust issues with the adults that should be closest to him (parents, aunts, uncles, grandparents).  His idea of being a parent is to manhandle, abusive and abrasive to force him to behave.  What is a parent to do when society says that we are wrong for the morals we teach and to encourage and be politically correct in our life (and I am only generalizing the politically correct part, since it is so adamant that Christians to bend to the ways of the world)?  What are we to do??  We are to pray, seek guidance from our Heavenly Father, who is loving and kind, that is what!  I am going to do what I know He wants, I am going to continue to raise my son with morals, and to believe that being politically correct is not important.  In fact, I refuse to be politically correct, if you don't like it then too bad!  I love everyone, but that doesn't mean that I have to accept everything to that society says is normal and right to be correct and turn my back on everything near and dear to me.  I want my son to be like my husband and brothers, a good man who loves their families and is strong in the gospel of Christ and loves his Heavenly Father!  Those are far more important than being politically correct!  So while we struggle with a teenager, I am going to do my best to seek guidance from my Father in Heaven than from the world, I am going to be more diligent in prayer to know how to teach my son to come to us and to be a gentle loving person that I know is still in there somewhere!  So my advice to the world and to those that push their beliefs contrary to mine: BEWARE, MY son is mine, not yours, he will not be OF the WORLD!  HE will be a good man in the gospel, a good priesthood holder and LOVE the Savior.  STAY OUT OF MY HOME!  Time to deep clean the garbage out of our home and hold on to the clean.

Gratitude For A Year...

So I have decided that I need to continue to find something to be grateful for each day for a year.  So this blog will continue to expand for the next year and be bounced around as I add to it.  I am also doing this on my Facebook page. 

Day 31: Yep still going! I thankful for the real reason behind the season. I love my Savior!

Day 32: Today I am thankful for the deer that will be filling numerous freezers. Gerry and his hunting group did pretty good, he didn't get one, but there is enough to spread the wealth.

Day 33: I am thankful for my Uncle Gerald who called me today! Bonnie and Gerald are so wonderful and I love them so much! My uncle and his wife Bonnie were always in our lives growing up with frequent visits before retirement and even more so afterwards. Not only was he my moms brother but my dads best friend and my Aunt Bonnie was my moms best friend. That is so amazing family, and I truly hope Gerry and I have that one day when we are older with family! Love you both!! 

Day 34: I am thankful for the opportunity to have new people in my life. I have made wonderful friends here through the church and I know they were placed in my life for a reason.

Day 35: I am thankful that my washing machine will finally be fixed tomorrow!!

Day 36: I am so thankful that my washer is fixed and running! Thank you to all who helped with it!
   

Thirty Days of Gratitude....That Time of Year Again...

It is that time of year again.  The difference is, I am really going to set a goal to keep this going all year round from now on.  I really do find that I am much happier when I think of all the wonderful blessings I have in my life to be thankful for.  Starting yesterday, here is the beginning of the year and hopefully I do this well enough for the rest of my life!  I am sharing my whole post from day 1 that I put on Facebook:

Day 1: It's that time of year again....yep 30 Days Of Thankfulness posts, I love doing this, seriously need to keep doing it all year round, it reminds me to be more thankful of my daily blessings and gifts. Day 1: I am thankful for the Gospel Of Christ in my life, it gives me comfort and peace and knowledge that blesses me so abundantly in life.

Day 2: I am thankful for the home we are living in. When we were moving things were supposed to be in the process of being taken care of in Montana. We found out while visiting Gerry's brother and his family that the woman that was supposed to be taking care of our paperwork so we would have a place to live quit, walked out, and left a pile of paperwork on her desk. Because of this, there were

numerous things that she failed to tell us we needed, didn't send in our paperwork to the main office. We would have been homeless had we kept going. Heavenly Father put us here for a reason and because of the generosity of family, we have a roof over our heads and Gerry was able to find a job (it took awhile, but he did). We are so grateful for Carl King and Jan Gluth King.

Day 3: today I am grateful for the few months I got to spend with an amazing woman. She was a small little lady, but her love was huge. I will miss visiting her dearly and taking her to church, but I am glad I had the opportunity to serve her. It was easy to love her so swiftly. It is not goodbye, but see you someday, again.  This is not in my post on my Facebook page:  The sister I visited was an amazing lady.  She was diagnosed with a rare disease at the age of ten and her parents were told she was not going to live and if she did, she would not live long.  She did almost die at that tender age, but she lived to 72, fought the entire time.  She married, had a daughter and granddaughter.  Her granddaughter was the light of her world and so was her great grandson.  She loved being close to her and I could tell from the short time I got to spend with her that her family was the most important part of her life. 

Day 4: Today I am thankful for old memories and the things that my friends from high school remember. Band and choir were my favorite times of high school, I made lasting friendships, fantastic memories that I will always cherish. It is fun to look back and only see what really matter: no drama, no stupid stuff, just the good!

Day 5: I am thankful for the teachers at my sons school. They are fantastic, we communicate almost daily about his progress, his stumbling blocks and in what we all can do to help him be successful. I have always been very involved in his education, but never to this extent and it wasn't because I didn't want it. It was always me who sought them out, now I have teachers who seek me out as well as I do them. Couldn't ask for better!

Day 6: today I am grateful that we live in the country we live in. Today is the day that happens every four years where we voice who we want to lead this great nation. I do not care what the choice is, but make sure your voice gets heard!! Today is Election Day!!

Day 7: I am thankful for a husband who will take care of me when I am sick. I have been so bad that he is doing house work and cooking for me so I can rest and try to recover. Love that man!

Day 8: Today I am thankful for my sweet puppy. I love it when he cuddles with me when I'm sick, how smart he is and how funny he can be when he plays.

Day 9: I am so thankful for the opportunity that I have to teach the high school youth in our little branch more about the New Testament and the Savior and His teachings. What an opportunity I have been given to not only help their testimony, but mine as well!

Day 10: I am thankful for good hospitals, doctors, nurses and other health professionals. Since moving here, we have been blessed with all the above. And it is comforting to know they are there when we need or have needed them.

Day 11: Today I am thankful for those that serve our country, and those that have served! I am especially grateful for Gerald King, John C. Frakes, John Frakes, Deryl King, Carl King, Brenda LaFontaine King, Doug Lewis, Earl King, my father-in-law and the family that helped fight for this country going all the way back to the Revolutionary War. It makes me proud to know that the Frakes family helped shape this country through years of military service and that I married into another family and that helped shape it.

Day 12: I am thankful for my sisters, especially Amy Frakes and Kimi Frakes who are very supportive of Gerry and I with prayers and just as a sounding board. Through the past couple of months they always check to see how his back is doing, see if we have heard anything new and offer comfort as we get frustrated with doctors when we still do not have answers. But I have more than just those two sisters, I have my sister Tracy, who is amazing, then my sister-in-laws, how are equally amazing! I love them all and I am grateful for them all!

Day 13: I am thankful for my faith in my Heavenly Father and my Savior, it brings such comfort to know that I have a knowledge of His gospel and that my family will be reunited.

Day 14: I an thankful for very dark curtains today that help keep out the daylight so my migraine can go away.

Day 15: I am thankful for Lifetouch and the great work they do in taking school pictures! This years picture is awesome. We missed out on the ones from 4th to 7th because the base school did not do retakes, which bums me out, but I am so glad that we are in a great school and that there were retakes, I just love this years picture!    

Day 16: I am thankful today for my friends near and far. I made some who will always be a dear friend since becoming an Army Wife. I still have so many that are close from my childhood. The best part we get to stay more in touch because of phones, email and Facebook.  I tagged a few friends here they are, Missy Johannson, Jhona Oberholtzer, Emily Evans Morrill and Valerie Gordon.

Day 17: I am thankful for my brothers and brother-in-laws. My four brothers are amazing, two protect their communities, one defends our country and the other works very hard to take care of his family. All four are great fathers to their children and wonderful husbands. One of my brother-in-law is crazy talented and builds homes for people who need them and is very smart and got me addicted to Apple (like I said, smart), the other four have all defended this great nation at one point in their life. I am so thankful to call them family. Thank you all for being you, John C. Frakes, Ryan Kellogg, Carl King, Deryl King, Jared Frakes, Greg Frakes and Jeff Lanning!

Day 18: I forgot to post this, but I am thankful for my husband. I no longer have to be alone in my trials, I have a wonderful man there who supports me, anchors me and loves me.
 
Day 19: I am thankful for wonderful friends who know a thing or two about computers and washers. Both problems have been solved, hopefully they can be easy fixes now. Whew, nothing major on either part.

Day 20: I am thankful for the opportunity to hear a person's first conversation with Heavenly Father, the Spirit was amazing!

Day 21: Today I am thankful for those that came before me and gave all for our freedom so we could live in this great country, for new family and friends, for precious freedoms that we have and for blessings we receive!

Day 22: Today I am thankful for those that came before me and gave all for our freedom so we could live in this great country, for new family and friends, for precious freedoms that we have and for blessings we receive!

Day 23: I am thankful for the opportunity we had to enjoy not one but two Thanksgiving dinners. One was my sister-in-laws parents and the other a wonderful friend from church. Lots if yummy food, better company and rich blessings from both! It's always a wonderful gift to get to know more people!  We had one with Gerry's brothers in-laws and then went to a friends house and ate there with even more people all from church!  Great food and yummy desserts, but better company!

Day 24: I am thankful for little blessings and gifts.

Day 25: I am thankful for the opportunity I have to teach the gospel. It doesn't matter if it is my three year old Sunbeams or someone else, it is a blessing to share the Savior and my knowledge of Him!

Day 26: I am thankful for my son. We have settled into a routine and the last few days he is working hard and doing his chores to earn points in our new system. I would never change the kind of child he is, and love him more everyday!

Day 27: I am so thankful for Deans two teachers that work with him the most. I know I have posted this before, but they are excellent teachers and do such great work and always appreciate that we try very hard to support them as much as possible!

Day 28: I am thankful for books, I love to read and live to loose myself in the world my book gives me for that moment.

Day 29: I am thankful for a husband who knows me as well as he does and for not facing to cook dinner tonight, thank you, Ashley Nicole, it was yummy!!  

Day 30: I am thankful for my many blessings that I have in my life. My Heavenly Father knows what they are and that my heart is full. 

Over A Year....Seems Like Yesterday...

On September 9th shortly after midnight my sister called me, I knew what it was, I didn't want to answer, I hated answering.  My heart sunk in my chest and before she started talking I was fighting tears.  It seems like yesterday, I know exactly how I reacted, felt and thought in those few moments on the phone.  I didn't always get a long with my parents the way I or they wanted, it was hard being so different as a child and then continueing to be so different into adulthood.  I would say it was hard for them to get me (understand me and why I was so different that is to say), and I would say it is just as hard for my siblings.  They are all alike.  But I digress. 

One year ago and over a month she left this world and moved onto a better place where the cancer was gone and she was healthy and beautiful, not pain ridden or a body full of a horrible disease.  It is hard to believe that she is gone, still.  I still want to pick up the phone and ask for advice.  My son still misses his grandma.  It is easy to know she is better and that she is serving our Savior and Heavenly Father, her mission did not end, it had just begun.  But it is hard to not have her here.  I miss my mom.  I am thankful that I have a mother-in-law that is so much like her.  She listens when I call, gives motherly advice and loves me, better still, she accpets me completely.  I do not begrudge my family for not getting me or completely accepting me, I still love them, but I find comfort in her love and acceptance.  I think my parents now know why I am who I am and why I will never be like them.  I have gifts that are rare that allow me to love completely without holding back because of mistakes and hurt. 

I take comfort that she is once again in my fathers arms.  He loved her so, I miss them both, but they need to be together.  They are with my sister and the rest of our family that has moved on.  They are doing great things together.  But, I still miss them.  There is a void that never used to be there.  Shortly after my mom died, my dad returned a ring and earring set that Gerry picked out for my mom.  I am grateful for the husband that I have.  Even though I loved the set he bought me as a gift after his first deployment, it never felt like that was the one (I kind of feel like this is also like the wedding dress, you just know when it is one your finger that it is the one that is supposed to stay there for the rest of your life).  But when I put on my mom's ring after it was sized, I knew and he understood.  So when I asked to trade in my set and get a band to go with it, he let me.  About four weeks ago, the bottom of the ring broke on my ring that he bought her.  I was devistated, I knew it was coming because it was sized poorly when we got it.  I felt like she was missing in my life, like the ring gave me a piece of her again.  So having to mail it off to New York to get fixed was painful for me.  I needed it back on my finger.  Yesterday it finally came and I feel like she is back, that little piece of her.  I am so relieved to have it again.  This time it was done right, they fixed it perfectly and it is back where it belongs!  Here is the beautiful ring he bought her that I now have.  The earrings look just like it.  It is amazing what we find our comfort in when we loose a loved one.